Today was very difficult. So difficult that I caved into crappy food. Well not entirely. I started the day off with a cool refreshing juice that I made out of carrots, spinach, a tomato, cilantro and an inch of ginger root. And MAN was it good! :) I found that I wasn’t too hungry afterwards and sort of felt like I needed to eat something before heading to my retail job.
Sadly, I didn’t get to eat anything until I got to work. I munched on my pre-made salad for 10 minutes until it was time to clock in. Two hours into my shift, I felt fine…until the fourth hour hit. I started getting a headache and felt weak. I also felt backed up for some reason. Yeah, backed up and not to mention worried about not having a bowel movement since the beginning of my detox reboot (I know, I know, TMI…).
Anyway, once my half-hour break hit, I headed to Chipotle. Yes, Chipotle. I got something really light: 2 small corn tortillas with about 2 ounces of grilled chicken, black beans, tomatoes w/ cilantro, corn and romaine lettuce. It was light and filling. My headache went away and I felt relieved, but guilty at the same time. At the end of my shift, I felt so bad about it, that I ended up grabbing a bag of doritos, cheese and crackers and an ice cream cone. I felt depressed and a mess.
I’m starting to realize that living in NYC and having a retail job makes it even harder to get on this healthier lifestyle. Unlike a typical 9-5, I don’t have the ability of getting out of my seat and grab my food and eat at my desk. I have to plan like crazy, to the extent of planning when I’m going to prepare my meals. Unfortunately I’m not in a stable financial position to continue my strict fruit & vegetable detox journey. As I mentioned on Day 1, everything I bought for the first day was expensive! I do NOT need to spend that much again.
So what am I going to do next? Re-introduce these healthy foods, but not all at once. Drastic diet changes do NOT work for me. Instead, I’m going to take my time adding more fruits and vegetables. Yes, one day at a time. I’ll also try the idea of eating lighter foods in the morning and afternoon, with heavier foods (meals w/ meat) at night. This was something I learned about from a book I purchased last year.
I’ll be back on Monday to give you all an update on my new detox/healthier lifestyle. Until then, I’m going to pick myself back up and try again. I’ll be working on my meal plan for next week as well.
That’s it! Game on!